For most of my life I felt like an odd ball, unsure of who I was or what I should be doing with myself. I had great desires and passions, but they were so fantastic I felt they were unrealistic; why they didn't compare to anything anyone around me dreamed! So, I did what any girl with low self esteem would do. I buried myself, and buried myself deep!
I am now, shouting it out loud and long. I know who I am! I know what I need to do. I am reading a great book called Please Understand Me II by David Keirsey. I strongly recommend this book to everyone.
To change the world one heart at a time is the deep desire of my heart. I am willing to do whatever necessary to assist in combating personal wars. I dream of far of places needing me, I dream of the child next door needing me. I dream of the man I am married to needing me. I had previously thought these were endeavors for super heroes, or that I was naive for thinking I could do anything remotely this phenomenal! This book I mention offers a quiz to help the individual gain understanding into their temperament, character, and intelligence (see cover of book). Although I have barely scratched the surface of this book, not to mention the great surface of "Me", I feel I finally can say I know who I am and what I need to do to make my mark.
I never was dedicated to my education (this is a subject for future reference) because I never understood what to focus my attention on. Ya know, there isn't a super woman degree! I didn't understand enough about myself to know where to apply myself. Oddly enough a year ago I was "guided" to my current degree program, Social Science. I am awe struck at how long it has taken me to find the right focus. Someone was definitely looking out for me on this one! I actually enjoy learning and even look forward to a Masters Degree. Now who'd have thought Ol' Slacker Sue would go that far!?
I must admit, I am a bit frightened by all of this. Just because I am now not afraid to admit my huge dreams does not make the grandness of my mission any less frightening. I admit, my feelings of inadequacy are overpowering. If I were super girl my kryptonite would definitely be lack of confidence.
So, check the book out. Discover something new about yourself. If you already know who you are then read it anyway, maybe it will give you a boost to magnify your potential. Who doesn't need a nudge back on track once in a while?
